“The Things I Would Do” is a song that I wrote the same night as my best friend passed away. She passed away from this world, from this dimension.

It all happened so fast after only a few weeks being bedridden in the hospital.

This is not a beautiful song about her. Maybe some day I will write that too, but for now I am grieving. This song is my grief.

I believe that I will see her again, but it’s still hard not having her here now. She has been a pillar in my world. Everything was easier to face knowing I had her.

This song is listing a lot of things I would do just to keep her here a little longer.

It’s not comfortable things. But that’s what grief is, it’s not comfortable at all. It’s painful, tiring and frustrating.

Still I would never want to be without any of the minutes we spent together. Every one of them was worth it!

LINKS

THE THINGS I WOULD DO

I would stand on burning coals

until my feet were dust and ashes

I would sleep beneath the snow

until the frost would break my lashes

I would swim in mud among slippery algae

and leeches and carrion beetles

if it meant 

that I could 

keep you here 

ten more years

I would sip old-bitten chai

as the mold islands float by

I would ride a wild mustang – without a helmet-

and dive in the sand

I would throw myself 

backwards off a cliff 

plunging into

ice-cold midnight waters

if it meant that I could 

keep you here

five more years

I would let myself be trapped 

in a room filled with spiders

I would drive on autobahn

in a car without tires

I would spend a day or two in a coffin 

that smells like a corpse.

I would do it in a second 

with no remorse

if it meant that I could 

make you stay

one more day

FACTS

I wrote this song on October 28, a few hours after my lovely Ida 🖤 passed.

This song was released on November 7, 2025.

It took me a few hours to write it, and ten days until it was recorded, produced and uploaded to digital streaming.